Free and release from the sign of insomnia
Phase 1: Fail to sleep
It didn’t matter whether I went to bed early or late, my mind would always wonder at night.
My brain was so hardworking that it couldn’t stop processing. I was suffering from serious insomnia, which made me wondered — should I need to sleep?
Sleeping was the hardest task for me. I failed to sleep and assumed that sleeping was wasting my time. The fact that my body would automatically awake at night, I couldn’t deny it.
Should I turn off my morning clock?
Or should I keep the ring tones stop?
And force me into bed every night.
Those were the questions in my mind. I needed to work for the next day, so I couldn’t take a day off or have a nap to call it a day — if I took a nap, my insomnia would be more serious. Sometimes I just assumed that I hated sleeping.
My eyes are surrounded by black and green, and I am always tired at the time of twelve in the afternoon.
Phase 2: Nightmares
Suffering from insomnia wasn’t just my problem. Even though I was able to sleep, most of the time I was chased by zombies or horrifying ghosts in my dream. My sleeping quality was terrible and was ruined by nightmares.
I was awake with a sudden increase in my heartbeat rate. Both my hands were cold and I was in a lake of breath.
I had no idea what was going wrong, that had made me suffering from day by day, night by night.
Phase 3: Hopeless
I was struggling. I told my family members about my problems but no one understood me. The answer that they gave me was just telling me to try sleeping — which I couldn’t. I felt hopeless, loneliness and loss.
Phase 4: Learning how to relax
After passing years of dealing with my insomnia, I found a way and solve this problem — that is through meditation.
I started guided meditation one year ago and did it every day for 10 minutes before I slept.
Meditation helped me a lot to solve my anxiety, and I found my greatest fear through this method to deal with it.
I am a friend with my fear. I listen to it, hear it, and know it. Meditation helps me to find out who I am, as well as learning how to appreciate myself.
Phase 4: Upgrade me
Learning how to relax and solve my insomnia is just a small step. I upgrade my meditation schedule by doing it from one time a day to three times a day, with an interval of at least 10 minutes.
I am now balancing myself between the line of an introvert and an extrovert, which helps me to socialize more for relationship building, as well as be a good listener in a team.
Free and release
Recovering from insomnia is like saving my soul out of mental illness. I am now having the capabilities to deal with my anxiety, stress as well as depression. I love myself, I love meditation, and I am free from insomnia now.
*Extended story of Learning How to Relax*
